Well it is December 17th. . . I think. I’ve lost track.
I think I am burnt out.
Husband is too. We haven’t had a breather in months.
I can’t take days off and he won’t and we’ve reached this point of despair.
We work really hard and towards this Christmas break as his office takes the 2 weeks off. Yet, in that time I will be working and there is a total of 3 measily days left that we can spend together (not even in a row). Kind of feels like a kick to the teeth.
I miss him. I miss family time. We don’t get that, because our schedules conflict.
Everything came to a head yesterday when he was overseas, I had a super rough and exhausting time at work where everything was offline and I needed to be in 3 places at once and do what takes 3 hours in 1.
I have tried to console myself by taking some pretty snaps on my camera. . .
That is fatiguing me too. I somehow have it set in a mode and for the life of me, I can’t clear the setting. So It is taking 3 photos a time. (It is in HDR mode and I have figured out how to set it up, but no one shows you how to clear it. DOING ME HEAD IN AND I WANT TO THROW THE CAMERA AT A WALL)
I feel stupid.
I have been on my husbands back about the mantle that he fucked up. I started the fixing up process by inhaling toxic shit with a heat gun to remove most of the paint while Audrey was still little and you could leave her alone. . . but nothing else since has happened with it. . . then we did a kitchen renovation and now it is Christmas.
But sometimes, you just got to let it go.
The mantle won’t be done by Christmas and that is just life. Oh well.
I’ve sewed all those gorgeous stockings. . . for the mantle and . . . no mantle.
So I am just going to be the great optimist and problem solver I like to be and hang them from the bay window, like I did in this pic from the baby shower.
Talking about stockings. I think this is my favourite one. Now happily re-homed.
This picture brings me to my next point. One of my fav Canadian interior designers has used my handles in one of her recent works.
I mean, what does that make me? A trend setter?? So chuffed.
Talking about chuffed!!
We grew garlic. No more imported Mexican shit for us! Totally organic (non-certified)
In other Christmas talks. I have a Christmas to do list and some things aren’t going to get done. One of them is the banquette. I also need to sew a table cloth. The fabric is just sitting in a crumpled heap on my floor right now. I was just going to hem the sides of the fabric (the selvage) so I had a straight edge because most fabric is 140 – 150 cm wide on the roll which would be perfect for my table and only have to cut the other 2 sides. . . . OHHH BUT NO. I somehow bought a double width roll fabric . . . which in any other circumstance is a bonus but not this time. Nothing seems to be going my way.
At least the tree is up. And that is a truly terrible photo.
And another thing that got finished at 2am. The need to craft can strike at anytime and I wasn’t going to bed until this was done. I want to make another one, now that I have experience. This one is very amateur. But I am sure Audrey won’t mind nor notice.
Now to leave you. Here are some of the happy snaps I managed to take. They are of this years wrapping aesthetic. I’ve kept it extremely simple and crafty. Kraft cards, ribbon & Christmas stamps from Spotlight. Butchers paper from Kmart. And some custom designed (by me) stamps.