On Sunday Audrey was baptized.
I kept it as a low key affair. Many reason dictated this but the main one was that I was borrowing the gown and it is little so I was under pressure to do it fast.
In the past few years I have organised events for my husband and I and now for our little family and oh my, can it be so overwhelming. All the effort. All the expectations. I just could not do it this time round. I just recently had my baby shower. Their was our wedding and our housewarming and I just feel like, oh no, not another Laura event.
So I just kept this one as low key as possible to keep my sanity.
Just kept it to family only. Immediate family too. (plus my god mother and family, as I consider them like family)
I didn’t do invites. I love making invites. I even make the envelopes. I go all out. But it seems like no one cares. I’ve seen them on my family’s kitchen table un-opened. But that is most likely because they already aware of the details and I usually send each person their own invite.
So I rang up the Catholic church near my house, because it has a primary school attached to it and if we stay in the area that is most likely the school Audrey will attend.
Got a date and met with the priest. He told me the time to come and to bring a candle. Ok done deal!
This will be simple.
I started looking online for those nice candles (Gosh there can be some tacky candles) with the lace and the name on it but upon realising that they can be $180 I decided no. I can make one myself.
I also got quotes on cakes. But for a simple 1 tier cake can cost at least $400! No! I want a KITCHENNNNN SO I CAN FEED MY CHILDDDDDD!!!!
So I decided to make one myself.
I wasn’t going to do bonbonieres because it was just family but then social pressures got the best of me. No I want to be dignified lady with manners.
Then while I had my lace out I decided to make a hair piece for myself.
It just engulfed me and swallowed my into 2 days of pure exhaustion trying to bake a bloody cake. I had 8 hours sleep over the 2 days before hand and the day of the baptism.
Anyways – Here are the pictures.
This is the christening gown.
My godmother purchased the pattern when she started trying to fall pregnant. She didn’t realise it would take 12 years to happen.
So when she finally did fall pregnant, she gave the pattern to my mother to make.
It had a petticoat and a bonnet too.
Her daughter was christened in this gown in 2000.
When I fell pregnant, I hoped that my daughter would be christened in the same gown. Luckily my god mother offered!
Here is the candle I made. I was worried it looked a bit bridal. The silver lace is left over lace from my sister in laws bridesmaid gown at my wedding. She has been overseas for 2.5 years and I thought this was a nice way to include her in the day.
You can see the lace on the waist band and a little bit on the shoulder
My sister had gold lace. That is my god mother in the pic and her daughter who was my junior bridesmaid and whose gown I borrowed.
The little circle of lace in the centre of the bow is from my wedding veil that I made myself.
Gosh I love that veil!!! Why can’t we wear veils more often? When I hear of woman choosing not to have a veil on their wedding day I am like. OH GOD WHY!!! It is the best thing ever. Don’t miss your ONLY opportunity!
Well enough about that wedding trip down memory lane.
I was going to put her name on the candle. It is do-able. You can get transfer paper. I read up on it and watched youtube tutorial. But it is hit and miss and I didn’t want the heartache of failure so I decided not to worry about it.
Audrey will know it is her candle, she doesn’t need her name emblazoned on it.
Next up was the cookies for the bonbon. I have been intrigued by royal icing and iced cookies and I was curious as to how hard it was to achieve.
It is hard!
I was trying to make something like this:
I think I know where I went wrong. My cookies aren’t flat to begin with. I didn’t beat the egg white enough. (The instructions say, just to break it up, but I think it needs longer then what I gave it) I also didn’t have enough pure icing sugar. Plenty icing sugar mixture though.
It says to pop the air bubbles, but they just weren’t popping. When I went to flood the cookies with icing it kept jumping containment lines.
They were amateur. I think I would actually try again to make these as the effort required isn’t too much as well as ingredients. Even if they look terrible again, they will still taste nice.
Next up was to make a floral cake topper. I got up at 5am to go to the flower markets after going to bed at 2am.
That was my haul. Very constrained. I’ve learnt my lesson since my baby shower where I went it all confused and ended up being the markets out of flowers because I was overwhelmed and didn’t want to regret not buying something.
I took in a certain amount of cash and a clear idea.
I love parrot tulips so much!
In the end, I can’t help but overdo things sometimes and I made 3 cake toppers.
And here are the 3 chilling in my fridge.
Now let’s take a moment to admire that bowl filled to the top with swiss meringue buttercream.
I made it ahead of time so I could be organised and prepared. It has 10 egg whites and 700 grams of exxy butter in it.
AND IT ENDED UP IN THE BIN AT THE 11th hour.
It was perfect but just had a few little bits of butter that weren’t whipped into it. I took it out and put it in the fridge. It said you could just go back and re-whip it. So just when I was finishing up and about to ice the cake, I put it in the mixer and right before my very eyes it went yellow, scrambled eggs, split mess!!! I desperately tried to save it by googling and there were tips but none worked and in the bin it went.
Between myself and my husband there was 6 trips to woolworths over 2 days for this effing CAKE!!!!! I just kept running out of ingredients. I’d be pouring out what I needed and nope, not enough, go to woolies, the next thing, not enough! Argh
So he went and purchased $32 worth of white chocolate. I thought for a long time it was only $24 worth of chocolate, because I can’t do maths. But it was $32!!! To try and make a white chocolate ganache instead.
I wasn’t going to make another swiss meringue buttercream as I didn’t want to use another 10 eggs!!
I followed all the instructions for the ganache (made it before anyway) and it split on me too! I have no idea how. I was so careful. But I put it in the fridge and kept stirring it and it eventually came good, but as I was icing hte cake, it was solidifying. So I just used it in between the cake layers and a crumb coat. and at 12 o’clock at night I made the old faithful buttercream. I didn’t want to make a buttercream as it can be sickly sweet, but it is reliable and I knew I couldn’t wreck it.
I never want to relive that day again.
In the end I was pretty happy with it.
I was finishing the cake even if it killed me! I made a gorgeous cake topper and it was going on a bloody cake!
And the cake was fine too! It just needed some icing.
On the day of the christening. It was stressful. I think days like these will never be enjoyed by the mum. Too many people holding your baby. Her getting upset. You getting upset because you feel you have no control. So much to do.
She was fine until we had to dress her. We got her in the dress and then we were just going to walk to the pram. So we put the bassinet part of the pram on the bed and I removed the cover so we could just lie her in it and rest of the gown just spill out over the edge! Well my mother in law had other ideas. I turned my back for a second and she was scrunching up the gown and tucking it into the bassinet and pulling the cover over. I COULD HAVE SCREAMED!!!
I ironed that gown TWICE. I’m a control freak and no one has the same ideas as me or thinks like I do! You would think “don’t crush the christening gown” would just go without saying. No. So many things like that happened throughout the day. Throughout any day when other people want to get involved. I don’t ask people for help. Number one, I’ve found most people to be unreliable and don’t follow through or if they do, it is not up to my expectation so I always employ the old saying, if you want something done right, do it yourself.
But when you are over stretched and it is not possible, that is when I get upset. But I need to start letting go of little things like that. Oh well. Just focus on bigger things.
Audrey was getting stressed out majorly. She didn’t want to lie in the bassinet. So in the end I picked her up. “Stuff crushing the dress” I hailed and I walked out my house with her and started walking to the church. I had to cross a main road and I must have looked odd. I was dressed up and Audrey in a long white dress and we were on our own. She calmed down right away until we walked into the church.
But thankfully she only looked like this before the ceremony and after!
During it, she was asleep. Not even the cold water could wake her.
We went to Summer Salt Restaurant in Cronulla afterwards for lunch!
What a perfect winters day!
Lunch was yum, we drank some moet and then the three of us went home to BED!!!!